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    “And this is Svetlana! You guys have a fun hockey connection. She’s BFFs with—ooh. What’s his name again, babe?”

    “Ilya Rozanov,” says Svetlana. Feeling virtuous about it, she offers her hand first. “Don’t tell him I said you have the best hands in the league.”

    Shane’s face is rigid. “Um. I won’t?”

    “Thank you,” she says gravely. “You have saved a life.” Rose laughs, stroking Shane’s arm, and he suddenly remembers Svetlana’s hand is hanging. He takes it limply and disposes of it quick. His eyes look a little wild.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    June 2010. Ilya Rozanov is delayed after the CCM shoot. By the time he gets to the locker room, Shane Hollander is out of the showers and Ilya’s entire plan is ruined.
    Only not quite fully ruined. Hollander invites him to dinner with his parents as a thank you for arranging the shoot and Ilya, in a burst of insanity, agrees. He hits it off with Yuna and David. They all exchange numbers. He and Hollander become friends.
    At no point does Ilya stop wanting more from him.

    June 2016. Ilya Rozanov is a superstar. A Cup winner. An MVP. Women want him, men want to be him. He’s fucking miserable.
    He’s in love with his best friend. He can’t deny it anymore. Only now Shane is dating a movie star and happier than Ilya’s ever seen him. Ilya can’t ruin that for him, can’t ruin their friendship by asking for what he knows Shane can’t give. No matter how much it kills him.

    A charity event in San Francisco. A catastrophic computer failure. A fateful decision to drive, not fly. Two days in a car, just the two of them. Alone. Together.
    Ilya’s sick with excitement and with dread, because how can he keep his secrets with Shane so close for so long?

    What he doesn’t know is that Shane has secrets too.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    “Be careful,” Shane frets, one hand hovering over Ilya’s shoulder. “It’s icy, and I don’t want to be a widower.”

    “Oh, we’d have to be much higher than this for the fall to kill me,” Ilya says, gaze still fixed on the cool black skyline. “At least seven stories.”

    It’s not until much later, as the waitress is clearing the dishes from dinner, that Yuna finds herself wondering why Ilya knows exactly how high a fall needs to be in order to kill him. 

    Or: Yuna learns about Ilya's past bit by bit over the years.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    On June 24th, 2022, during game seven of the Stanley Cup finals, Ilya Rozanov takes a skate blade to the thigh and bleeds out on the ice.

    The next morning, Shane wakes up in his husband's arms. It's June 24th again, and Ilya is still alive.

    Now Shane just needs to figure out how to keep him that way.

    Or: Shane gets stuck in a time loop.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “Do you have any tattoos?” he asks; Rose has good taste, maybe she knows an artist-

    “See, this is why I know you’re gay. We’ve literally been naked together Shane, and you can’t even remember the tattoo I have on my hip?” she sounds exasperated, but Shane, after a hurried moment recalling, frowns.

    “You don’t have a tattoo on your hip.” he argues.

    Rose laughs.

    “Yeah, but you had to really think about it, didn’t you?” She teases. “How many tattoos does your lover boy have?”

    “Just the one, on his chest. I don’t think he likes it though.” Shane answers immediately, before realizing that he’s proven Rose’s point.

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